met an old friend today :)
work's still good.



anyway, i've wanted to blog about this for quite some time but i never got around to doing it. yeahh.

i think my closest friends now are the poly friends, maybe with the few exceptions?
what people say about sec school friends being the ones that stick with you and friends forever and ever & happily ever after? it doesn't happen all the time. period.
i can tell you honestly that now, most likely the poly friends (you guys know who you are! :DD ) are the ones who know the stuff. like what's the deal with this guy? and probably all the tiny details that come with it.


i would love to think that we (we equals -insert name- and i) are still as close as before but truth is, we've drifted apart. obviously further than i would like, not that i like drifting apart anyway but you get the point.
i've been trying to tell myself that no, we did not drift apart. we're still as close as before even though we don't spend much time together now. lying to yourself is sometimes easier than facing the truth and that was what i've been doing.
it gets tiring.


cliques get broken up over the years. friends backstab.
i get it alot, i think. and i know when people backstab, don't think i don't because for all you know, i know and i'm just letting the matter go. it's disappointing when you get backstabbing from people you're close to & you totally did not see it coming. that's why it hurt so bad isn't it? because you care. as much as people don't want to get hurt, we can't prevent it from happening because it's our hearts that chose who to love, to care about.


no choice? maybe.


goodnight everyone.